Britney Spears On Crying For Two Weeks After Watching Bits Of Her Documentary

Britney Spears’ life has been peppered with drama, conspiracies, and unrelenting media scrutiny. Barely two months after the release of her unauthorized documentary, "Framing Britney Spears," the singer addressed the film on Tuesday and remarked that her life has always been subjected to constant speculation.

“My life has always been very speculated ... watched ... and judged really my whole life !!!” the 39-year-old singer wrote, on Instagram, while revealing that she broke down while watching the movie, though she didn’t watch the entire thing. “For my sanity, I need to dance to [Steven Tyler] every night of my life to feel wild and human and alive !!!”

Speaking about how she’s been judged all through, Britney averred, “I have been exposed my whole life performing in front of people. It takes a lot of strength to TRUST the universe with your real vulnerability cause I've always been so judged... insulted... and embarrassed by the media... and I still am till this day.”

She added that while she didn’t sit through the entire documentary, she was “embarrassed” by the portrayal of her character. “I cried for two weeks and well ... I still cry sometimes !!!!" she wrote. "I do what I can in my own spirituality with myself to try and keep my own joy ... love ... and happiness !!!!”

Britney, who’s never really spoken up about the issue, took fans by surprise when she addressed the explosive documentary that traces her journey to stardom and the origins of her conservatorship. Britney’s revelatory post comes days after her lawyer requested the resignation of her father Jamie Spears as her permanent conservator, and to have Jodi Montgomery replace him.

The entire process has been an ordeal, more so with Jamie’s lawyer Vivian Thoreen citing how Britney was in support of the arrangement all through. “Any time Britney wants to end her conservatorship, she can ask her lawyer to file a petition to terminate it; she has always had this right but in 13 years has never exercised it. Britney knows that her Daddy loves her, and that he will be there for her whenever and if she needs him, just as he always has been — conservatorship or not,” she said, in an interview with PEOPLE.

However, the new court filing stated that Britney would be reserving the right "to petition for the termination of this conservatorship."