Billie Eilish: Watching ‘Violent’ Porn 'Destroyed' Her Brain

Billie Eilish recently admitted that an early fascination with pornography had affected her sex life and mental health.

"As a woman, I think porn is a disgrace," she said on Monday's episode of "The Howard Stern Show," TMZ reported. "I used to watch a lot of porn, to be honest. I started watching porn when I was like 11."

She added, "I think it really destroyed my brain, and I feel incredibly devastated that I was exposed to so much porn."

CNN said Eilish is recognized for her frequently harsh lyrics, being homeschooled in Los Angeles and winning seven Grammy Awards.

She talks about being home alone and distracting herself with pornography while recalling a failed relationship in the ballad "Male Fantasy" from her second album, "Happier Than Ever."

Eilish claimed that her sleep paralysis and night terrors were caused by her experience to "abusive" BDSM, an acronym that alludes to power play in sex.

"It got to a point where I couldn't watch anything else unless it was violent; I didn't think it was attractive," she said. "I was a virgin. I had never done anything. And so it led to problems," she said per Insider.

Eilish admitted that she is now angry with herself for believing that watching porn was appropriate. After witnessing content she described as "violent" and "abusive" as a child, she told show host Howard Stern (per BBC) that she now feels porn "is a disgrace."

She also slammed the way pornography portrays women's bodies and sexual experiences in particular.

"I didn't understand why that was a bad thing - I thought it was how you learned how to have sex," Eilish said about watching, adding her mother was "horrified" when she told her.

"I was an advocate and I thought I was one of the guys and would talk about it and think I was really cool for not having a problem with it and not seeing why it was bad."

The singer also confessed that she contracted COVID-19 during the summer, killing her if she hadn't been vaccinated.

She told Stern that she was sick for about two months after testing positive in August.

"I didn't die and I wasn't going to die but that doesn't take away from how miserable I was. I mean it was terrible," she said.

However, if she hadn't been vaccinated, things may have been lot worse. " "I want it to be clear that it's because of the vaccine that I'm fine. I think if I weren't vaccinated I would have like died because it was bad," she added.